Friday, February 12, 2010

On writing and being read

When you write, you actually give yourself to the world also known as readers, while breaking down your guards and exposing your insides.

As much as I can and if I have that option, I would just confine between my desk and my chair so the words on my journal would remain unseen by any other being unless I already died. With this in mind, I’m actually being stingy not just to those whom I could’ve ministered to, but much to myself for locking down my doors to the feedbacks on what I can improve on. I’m not saying that I publish my thoughts to every person that I would come across with. Of course I know you know better. But being confident in this: each one of us has a story to tell and that we’re also designed to express. One avenue given to us is through our written works.

I realized that my being reserved in that way actually roots from fear and insecurity. For the most part, I do not take the risk to stand up and say my piece because I don’t want to remove my guards and expose my vulnerability to men. I didn’t like the thought that they would come to me with attacks of you’re-this-and-that. Another thing is, when I attempt to give it a shot, the way I consider that the works of others are way better than mine would shoot me back. Now I had to reassess my life and look on what and who really matters. Who am I trying to please?

“God was pleased to trust us with His message. We didn’t speak to please people, but to please God who knows our motives.”
-1 Thessalonians 2:4 (CEV)

If you are or have been in the same struggle as I was, then it would help you much to be more honest with yourself. As I recall my activities in the past, the moments that I try to pose an I’m-okay-with-no-need-for-correction façade only ends up with more mess for me to clean up. For me, these points can somehow sum up the most vital steps to recover from a lot of red marks on your paper:

· Put your confidence in the Lord, not on yourself, not on men. The most valuable comment comes from Him who deeply knows you.
· Be humble with who you really are by accepting your shortcomings and weaknesses, and learning from them.
· Understand that you have been given the potentials and the opportunities to grow.
· Be in gratitude so in all you do, you do them for God’s glory, which will cause you to aim for excellence. That kind motivation is what matters.

I’m still a struggling, learning writer. We have the best author and editor of our lives, though. And His big embrace of grace is always welcome for you to receive.

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