On writing and being read

When you write, you actually give yourself to the world also known as readers, while breaking down your guards and exposing your insides.

 

As much as I can and if I have that option, I would just confine between my desk and my chair so the words on my journal would remain unseen by any other being unless I already died. With this in mind, I’m actually being stingy not just to those whom I could’ve ministered to, but much to myself for locking down my doors to the feedbacks on what I can improve on. I’m not saying that I publish my thoughts to every person that I would come across with. Of course I know you know better. But being confident in this: each one of us has a story to tell and that we’re also designed to express. One avenue given to us is through our written works.

 

I realized that my being reserved in that way actually roots from fear and insecurity. For the most part, I do not take the risk to stand up and say my piece because I don’t want to remove my guards and expose my vulnerability to men. I didn’t like the thought that they would come to me with attacks of you’re-this-and-that. Another thing is, when I attempt to give it a shot, the way I consider that the works of others are way better than mine would shoot me back. Now I had to reassess my life and look on what and who really matters. Who am I trying to please?

 

“God was pleased to trust us with His message. We didn’t speak to please people, but to please God who knows our motives.”

-1 Thessalonians 2:4

 

If you are or have been in the same struggle as I was, then it would help you much to be more honest with yourself. As I recall my activities in the past, the moments that I try to pose an I’m-okay-with-no-need-for-correction façade only ends up with more mess for me to clean up. For me, these points can somehow sum up the most vital steps to recover from a lot of red marks on your paper:

·         Put your confidence in the Lord, not on yourself, not on men. The most valuable comment comes from Him who deeply knows you.

·         Be humble with who you really are by accepting your shortcomings and weaknesses, and learning from them.

·         Understand that you have been given the potentials and the opportunities to grow.

·         Be in gratitude so in all you do, you do them for God’s glory, which will cause you to aim for excellence. That kind motivation is what matters.

 

I’m still a struggling, learning writer. We have the best author and editor of our lives, though. And His big embrace of grace is always welcome for you to receive.